Never enough time

I wonder where the days go.  I'm only working part-time now as a hygienist, so come every Thursday when my two days a week are finished at the office, I'm always super optimistic about what I'll be able to accomplish in the next 5 days (unrealistically optimistic unfortunately).   

Got off to a good start Friday morning...started cleaning first thing in the morning.  Figured I had a couple of hours to put in to get the house the way I wanted it.  My "couple of hours" turned into 5 hours (and now, come Monday - it's a mess again - hate that).  Spent the rest of the day on some last minute Christmas stuff. 

Wrestling meet all day on Saturday.  It was the last meet and as much as I hate to admit it, I a soooooo glad it is over until next year (won't be missing practice 2 nights a week and all day meets every single Saturday).  Ate out for dinner (only because I am behind on grocery shopping) and then took the kiddos out to look at Christmas lights (kids reveling in the little things like Christmas lights sure does help to get you focused on what Chrsitmas is all about).

Over to visit Josh's Grandparents yesterday in Klamath Falls.  Lots of snow on the pass, so we spent the better part of the day in the car.  Fun day though.  The kids got to play in the snow and got to open some early Christmas presents.

So here I am, Monday morning with that never-ending "to-do" list glaring at me.  Haven't accomplished much that I had optimistically set out to do.  I've got artwork due for Creative Imaginations, a new class to design, Christmas shopping to finish up, the boys both need haircuts, still need to figure out what I am cooking for dinner on Christmas Eve, more cleaning to do, wanting to get some stuff together for the baby (I'm going to be in a world of hurt if I have this baby early - I am not ready) and the list goes on (I'll bet you know the feeling).

So I have a point in all of this.  Our pastor had a great message last Sunday that really struck a chord with me - haven't been able to get it out of my head.  It's simple, and it's something I already knew, but ya know how sometimes you can already know something, but when someone explains it in a certain way, it finally "hits home".  I have to shift my focus...I have to be sure that my focus is on what is "pouring out of me" rather than what is "pouring into me".  Simple concept - and wouldn't it have the most dramatic impact if it were a concept that we could all embrace...more focus on what I can give of myself, less focus on what I can give to myself.

There is never going to be enough time in my day with 2 jobs, soon to be 4 kids, a house, a dog, a hobby I am passionate about and all the other little things that consume my energy.  But if it were easy, then I wouldn't really be "giving of myself". 

I'm committed to it.

Comments

[~Monica~]

Saw your blog link on praise you left me on 2Ps, so you are apparantly taking a break, LOL! Great message today. I don't know how you keep up with your life ;)

[leigh ann]

love that--what is pouring out of me--thanks for the re-focusing!

[Jen]

wow...love that quote..really makes you think about "stuff"!!

[Katie]

I'm going to have to remember that!! more focus on what I can give of myself, less focus on what I can give to myself.