Ever since I was little, I was quite sure that God had intended for me to be a gymnast and a pianist.
I used to watch gymnastics on T.V. with my eyes wide and goosebumps on my arms, knowing that it was my destiny. My friend, Bobbi Jo took gymnastics classes and I used to sit in the stands with her mom watching her practice. I remember telling her mom that I needed to use the restroom, but really I was just going in there to cry because it was too hard for me to watch my destiny passing me by from the bleachers.
I was kind of a weird kid, so I never told anyone, including my parents that I wanted to take gymnastics classes.
And I remember how excited I would get anytime we went to visit my parent's friends, Bob & Mary because they had a piano that I would sit and play for hours on end. I remember feeling so happy to be sitting at a piano but so sad at the same time knowing that it was my destiny to play but that I'd never own one and I never learn how to play one either.
But like I mentioned, I was kind of a weird kid, so I never told anyone, including my parents that I wanted to take piano lessons.
I finally gave up my dream of being a gymnast a few years back (in case you were wondering, the uneven bars would have totally been my event). I guess it just didn't seem realistic once I hit 30 that I could make it to the Olympics anymore.
But I had never given up on playing the piano. Even as an adult, I've never heard a piano playing without getting goosebumps and feeling melancholy; knowing that I was meant to play one.
Josh was giddy-excited about my Christmas present this year (and Josh doesn't get giddy-excited over anything other than the Beavers and beer). He'd been planning it for a couple of months, making lots of trips to Medford, receiving lots of private phone calls and lots of text messages.
He's a good secret keeper though so I didn't have any clue what he was planning. My Sister did slip up when Josh was showing her different choices for my Christmas present online and said "I don't like the feet on that one." which made me think that maybe he had found an old clawfoot bathtub for me for the new, old house we're fixing up (as I was also destined to take lots of long, hot baths).
A few days before Christmas, I was banned from going to the new, old house.
Christmas Eve, we went to a Christmas Eve service at a new church (since we're moving about 30 miles from our old house, we're looking for a new church) and after we sat down Josh pointed to the stage and said "Check out that piano." and for a brief moment, I got goosebumps on my arms and thought to myself, What if Josh Downs got me a piano?
I quickly forced myself to dismiss the idea though because I didn't want to get excited about something that seemed so unlikely and besides, I didn't think there was any way in the world that Josh would have remembered that one time, several years back when I told him that ever since I was a little girl, plucking away at the piano at Bob & Mary's house that I knew I was destined to play the piano and that my heart kind of hurt every single time I heard a piano play ever since.
We had set up a tree at our old, new house (that's the house we live in now) and the kiddos all thought that that was where we'd be spending Christmas night and Christmas morning. A few days before Christmas though, Josh and I went over to the new, old house (that's the old house we're fixing up) to wrap all the Christmas presents and to set up a tree over there too to surprise the kids with.
So we went to sleep at the new, old house on Christmas Eve (I was banned from going in or around the dining room where we set up the tree).
And at 6:00 am on Christmas morning, I walked into the dining room to find this...
That's me doing one of those 'ugly cries' (we actually had to halt Christmas morning for about 10 minutes because I couldn't quit crying).
It's beautiful. The most beautiful, old piano (it was built in the late 1800's) I have ever seen. And it's exactly what I would have picked for myself. It's all dinged up and lovely (to me, all those scratches and dings are just part of it's history and they make me love it even more).
Josh had looked at about 15 old pianos in the area and picked this one for me. It was owned by a guy with a local recording studio. In fact, Guitar Center and the Smashing Pumpkins just put out a CD called Fresh Cuts that features 13 tracks by various Guitar Center artists, hand-picked by the Smashing Pumpkins for the CD and a local band, Shroder was playing this very piano (my new piano) on their track.
Crazy to me that such an old piano could play so well.
And though I would never normally ask how much my Christmas present cost, I was concerned that my normally frugal husband might have spent all the money we are planning on fixing up the new, old house with, so I had to ask...$350 bucks. Turns out that the guy who owned it was just selling it for what he had originally paid for it years ago.
Josh said that he was worried that he had ruined all future Christmas's for himself though because he'd never be able to out-do this gift.
I'm not really the kind of girl who needs him to 'out-do' last years gift though and to tell you the truth (however cheesy and sappy the truth might be), no one could ever outdo what he's done; loving me so much that he would know that that piano was my destiny.